By Joseph Keleher

I noted likely connections to mercury while reviewing some early DOP (delusion of parasitosis) accounts. While it is difficult to draw a direct line between mercury exposure and the symptom set once referred to as DOP, enough probable connections exist to merit a review by a qualified medical researcher (or researchers). Patient exposure falls into use of mercury as a medicinal for treating syphilis and use of cosmetics containing mercury. Each is briefly discussed below.  As mercurial skin creams are still in use in some parts of the world, some relevant cases are presented.


Mercury was used to treat syphilis over a span of 450 years until the introduction of penicillin in 1943 (Tilles and Wallach 1996: 501- 10). Several cases documenting DOP in Wilson and Miller (1946) make mention of syphilis. Case 38, “…had syphilis at the age of 40 and received standard treatment for two years” (Wilson and Miller 1946: 51). Case 41 “…had syphilis at the age of 36 and had five years of treatment” (Wilson and Miller 1946: 52). While mercury as treatment in Case 38 and 41 is not stated, it is likely it was used. Case 46 does document mercury playing a role as, “a ship’s captain (who) complained of itching and creeping sensations which involved the face severely, but all parts of the body had been affected at times. The disorder had begun twenty years previously with a crawling sensation about the genitals and perineal region. He believed pubic lice to be present at the time but could never find them. He tried strong mercurial ointment, and within a day or so this medication had ‘driven them all over the body’” (Wilson and Miller 1946: 52).

There also appears to be some connection between patients suffering from a condition called syphilophobia and DOP. “Syphilophobia is a psychiatric symptom which may accompany or precede all stages of mental illness, and is analogous in all features to the delusion of parasitosis” (Macalpine 1957: 99). For unclear reasons, Wilson (1952) categorizes DOP with syphilophobia. Self-treatment with mercurial ointment is a possibility.


Some early cosmetics had mercury as a key ingredient. A dated source itself states,  “Despite the fact that topical mercury preparations were condemned as both useless and dangerous almost twenty years ago, these creams are apparently still available” (Oliveira et. al. 1987: 304). For unknown reasons, mercurial skin creams are still widely in use throughout Africa, SE Asia, many Arabic speaking countries, and Mexico (see related research under search of “mercury skin cream” on

Cases 5 and 6 presented by Wilson and Miller in addition to having DOP symptoms had vitigo (irregular pigmentation likely treated with mercurial, skin-whitening cream) (1946:47). Documented commonalities between cases states, “’bugs’ may come out of such common household items as toothpaste, petroleum jelly, or cosmetics” (Schrut and Waldron 1963: 429). Also noteworthy is, “The typical patient with delusion of parasitosis is a woman over 40 (the condition is three times as common in women)” (Br. Med. J. 1977: 790); this pattern could relate to prolonged use of cosmetics.

In a large scale study of dermal effects of skin whitening creams, “of the 368 women questioned…main skin complaints included dermatophyte infections (n= 105) and scabies (n= 69)” (Mahe’ et. al. 2003). Another study of a condition found in Nigerian patients called “Ode Ori” is described as, “crawling sensations in the head and body, noises in the ears, palpitations and various other somatic complaints” (Makanjuola 1987). Similarly, Ebigbo presents “heat in the body and head; crawling, heavy and biting sensations” found in Nigeria (Ebigbo 1993:396- 401).

Mercurial skin creams are still in use in Mexico (also in US border states. See CDC study  “Update: Mercury Poisoning Associated with Beauty Cream – AZ, CA, NM and Texas” 1996). The US distribution map of Morgellons Disease (which is widely accepted by the medical community as the same as DOP) on shows higher concentrations in US/ Mexico Border States.

Discussion- I am not a qualified medical researcher nor am I objective in presenting such information as connections between mercury and DOP symptoms (see documentation of my recovery from related symptoms in “Hell and Back Again” Keleher 2008). None the less, I cannot help seeing connections and possible connections throughout the medical research on the symptoms set labeled DOP (and other times Morgellons Disease) and mercury. Certainly, some of the connections in this paper as well as an earlier paper (see Keleher 2008) are speculative. My background as a researcher is in the admittedly soft science of archaeology. My hope in presenting this and other information is that a qualified medical professional (or professionals) will further the investigation.


Center for Disease Control and Prevention, "Mercury Poisoning Associated With Beauty Cream- AZ, CA, NM and Texas 1996." MMWR Morb. Mortal Weekly Report 45, no. 1 (1996): 633-5.

"Delusions of Parasitosis." British Medical Journal 26, no. 1 (1977): 790-791.

Keleher, Joseph W.. "Hell and back Again: An Account of Morgellons Disease and Its Cure From a Former Sufferer." Explore! 17, no. 4 ( August 2008):

Keleher, Joseph W.. "Patterns in Early Morgellons Disease Considered as Effect of Mercury Exposure." Explore! 17,  no. 6 (December 2008):

Mahe’, A, Ly F, Aymaid G and Dangou JM. "Skin Diseases Associated With the Cosmetic Use of Bleaching Products in Women From Dakar, Senegal." British Journal of Dermatology 148, no. 3 (March, 2003): 493-500.

Makanjuola, RO. ""’Ode Ori’ A Cultural-Bound Disorder with Prominent Somantic Features in Yoruba Nigerian Patients." Acta. Psychiatric Scandinavia 75, no. 3 (1987): 231-6.

Macalpine, Ida. "Syphilophobia: A Psychiatric Study." British Journal of Venereal Disease 33, no. (1957): 92. Internet: accessed 27 October 2009 Internet: accessed 31..October 2009.

Schrut, Albert H., MD and William G. Waldron. "Psychiatric and Entomological Aspects of Delusory Parasitosis." Journal of the American Medical Association 186 (1963): 429-430.
Sneddon, I. B.,. "The Mind and the Skin." British Medical Journal (March, 1949): 472-5.

Tilles, G. and D. Wallach. "The Treatment of Syphilis with Mercury: An Exemplary Therapeutic History." History of Science in Medicine 30, no. 4 (1996): 501- 510.

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Comments on: "Mercury Associations in DOP Accounts" (26)

  1. Joe, I’d like to throw in this little tid bit as well …

    High Fructose Corn Syrup Contaminated with Toxic Mercury, Says Research (opinion)

    New research published in Environmental Health and conducted in part by a scientist at the Institute for Agriculture and Trade Policy has revealed that high-fructose corn syrup (HFCS) is contaminated with the toxic heavy metal mercury.

    That means that many of the products using HFCS may also be contaminated with mercury. Carbonated sodas are sweetened with HFCS, as are candy bars, bread, salad dressings, pizza sauce, fruit drinks and thousands of other grocery items.

    Mercury is so highly toxic that it causes severe neurological disorders. It can also result in the loss of hair, teeth and nails as well as muscle weakness, loss of kidney function, emotional mood swings and memory impairment. (…) (P.S. Somebody please update this Wikipedia page with this latest research about HFCS being a source for mercury exposure, too.)

    The highest level of contamination found in the study ( was 0.57 micrograms of mercury per gram of HFCS. The EPA says that an average-sized woman should consume no more than 5.5 micrograms per day of mercury, meaning that the average American consumer may be eating five times the upper safety limit of mercury every day due to high-fructose corn syrup consumption if they consume the foods tested in the study.

    That’s because the average American consumes 12 teaspoons of HFCS every day! So just by eating the standard American diet of processed foods, consumers are right now potentially exposing themselves to exceedingly high levels of mercury that far surpass the safety limits set by the EPA.

    Where does all the mercury come from?

    Most people don’t know how high-fructose corn syrup is really made. One of those processes is a bizarre chemical brew involving the creation of caustic soda by exposing raw materials to pools of electrified mercury in a large vat. Through this process, the caustic soda gets contaminated with mercury, and when corn kernels are exposed to this caustic soda to break them down, that contamination is passed through to the High Fructose Corn Syrup.

    Click on this link for the rest of the story …

  2. Holy Fake Guacamole Batman!
    Looks like moi was a little presumptuous re: the Environmental Dentists!
    Will have to re- think this whole deal.

  3. sistertocommonsense said:

    Interestingly this just came up from the EWG in my email, I have a distinct feeling it is not just in minority babies.

    Sister to Common Sense

  4. sistertocommonsense said:

    Mercury and its analogs in skin care in the name of beauty. WOW
    You are gonna love this about skin lightening products some of the biggest most expensive brands to the cheapest can be the worst. While we are at it take a look at some of the CHEAP plastics this stuff comes in in my previous post on phathalates.

    Sister to Common Sense

    • brandicarlene said:

      Well… this is fascinating. I’m so grateful for the research you all did on this. When I posted, “my personal protocol/regimen” I stated that OBAGI skin lightening cream as, “miraculous”; I now find out that it has the dangerous ingredients you’ve been blogging about. Check out the warning on one of the 5 products in this “5 part skin care system”. I feel obligated to warn after ranting and raving about it! Ignorance may be bliss for some, but it seems downright lethal from my perspective. Though, I suppose the bliss kicks in because/when you have NO CLUE that you are indeed, inadvertently poisoning yourself in the name of vanity… & paying out the booty to do so! AY YI YI, the irony… Check this out:

      Obagi C-Clarifying Serum Formulated with patented combination of Vitamin C, hydroquinone 4%, and other ingredients, Obagi C-Clarifying Serum works to even skin tone and reduce the appearance of fine lines and wrinkles resulting in smoother, more radiant skin. Obagi C-Clarifying Serum also helps to reduce the sight of hyperpigmented skin conditions such as chloasma, melasma, freckles, senile lentigines, and other unwanted areas of melanin hyperpigmentation. Apply in the morning after C-Cleansing Gel as part of the Obagi-C Rx System.

      Hydroquinone is a skin-bleaching agent, which may produce unwanted cosmetic effects if not used as directed. The physician should be familiar with the contents of this insert before prescribing or dispensing this medication.
      Test for skin sensitivity before using by applying a small amount to an unbroken patch of skin and check in 24 hours. Minor redness is not a contraindication, but where there is itching or vesicle formation or excessive inflammatory response, further treatment is not advised. Close patient supervision is recommended.
      Avoid contact with eyes. In case of accidental contact, patient should rinse eyes thoroughly with water and contact physician. A bitter taste and anesthetic effect may occur if applied to lips.
      Sunscreen use is an essential aspect of hydroquinone therapy because even minimal sunlight exposure sustains melanocytic activity.
      Safety and effectiveness in children below the age of 12 years have not been established

      Now, I want to let everyone know that the part of the skin care system that I like is the “day exfoliator”… I often just use that alone, & well, I won’t be using any of the other crapola anymore. I will post the ingredients and directions concerning that particular product in a minute…

      • brandicarlene said:

        OOPS! Here’s the rest of the info on that product…Directions:

        A thin application should be applied to the affected area twice daily or as directed by a physician. If no improvement is seen after three months of treatment, use of Obagi C-Clarifying Serum should be discontinued. Sun exposure should be limited by using a sunscreen agent, a sun blocking agent, or protective clothing to cover bleached skin when using and after using this product in order to prevent repigmentation.

        Each gram of Obagi-C Rx System C-Claryifying Serum contains Hydroquinon USP 40mg/Gm In A Base Of Propylene Glycol, Propylene Carbonate, L-Ascorbic Acid (Vitamin C), Purified water, And Sodium Lauryl Sulfate

  5. Joe Keleher said:

    Mahe’s’ study makes me wonder. I think the high number of “scabies” is significant. I found this in summary form…but wonder if the cases had symptoms above the neck (which I understand would confirm it is not scabies). As I was originally diagnosed with scabies (and I know most other sufferers also have/had this diagnosis), I think some further connection to Morgellons/NCS could be made.

    I am amazed that the use of mercury in food, cosmetics, and medical related is accepted as reasonable by most. Anyone who reads the accounts of Miamato (Japanese village poisoned by industrial mercury) will see mercury is not something to mess with!

    • brandicarlene said:

      WOOSH! Here’s the rest of the product info… SCARY!

      Obagi C-Exfoliating Day Lotion Obagi C-Exfoliating Day Lotion with Vitamin C gently exfoliates, accelerating surface skin cell turnover, while hydrating and protecting to promote brighter, Photolumines Skin.

      Apply Obagi C-Exfoliating Day Lotion With Vitamin C to the face and neck in the morning after Obagi-c Rx System C-Clarifying Serum and before Obagi C-SunGuard SPF 30. Massage in gently.

      Obagi C-Exfoliating Day Lotion With Vitamin C contains: Purified Water, Glycolic Acid, Arginine, Hydroxyethyl Acrylate/Sodium Acryloyldimethyl Taurate Copolymer, Squalane, Polysorbate 60, Ethylhexyl Palmitate, Ethylhexyl Stearate, PEG-100 Stearate, PEG-8 Dimethicone, PEG-8 Ricinoleate, Sodium Hydroxide, Glycerin, Ascorbyl Glucoside (Vitamin C), Sodium Hyaluronate (Hyaluronic Acid), Tocopheryl Acetate (Vitamin E), Phenoxyethanol, Cetearyl Alcohol, Ceteareth-20, Dimethicone, Steareth-2, Tetrasodium EDTA, Bisabolol, Methylparaben, Ethylparaben, Butylparaben, Propylparaben, Isobutylparaben, Fragrance.
      Obagi C-Therapy Night Cream Formulated with a patented combination of therapeutic and antioxidant ingredients, Obagi C-Therapy Night Cream works gently to even skin tone and reduce the appearance of fine lines and wrinkles, resulting in smoother, more radiant skin. Obagi C-Therapy Night Cream gradually bleaches hyperpigmented skin conditions such as chloasma, melasma, freckles, senile lentigines, and other unwanted areas of melanin hyperpigmentation.

      A thin application should be applied nightly to the affected area or as administered by a physician.


      Contains sodium metabisulfite, a sulfite that may cause serious allergic type reactions (e.g. hives, itching, wheezing, anaphylaxis, severe asthma attacks) in certain susceptible persons.

      Each gram of Obagi-C Rx System C-Therapy Night Cream contains Hydroquinone 40mg/Gm In A Base Of Purified Water, Glycerin, Cetyl Alcohol, PPG-2 Myristyl Ether Propionate, Tocopheryl Acetate (Vitamin E), Sodium Lauryl Sulfate, L-Ascorbic Acid (Vitamin C), TEA-Salicylate, Lactic Acid, Saponins, Methylparaben, Edetate Disodium, Propylparaben, BHT, Phenyl Trimethicone, Sodium Metabisulfite

      • sistertocommonsense said:

        Dear BrandiCarlene,
        Pretty Eye Opening Stuff isn’t it.
        If you like I can tear this apart piece by piece, but I don’t think we need to go there.
        Just know if they don’t list their ingredients on the internet when you do a search, they are hiding something. If you look at the Cost of Goods (COG) the lower the COG the greater the profit to the Doctors who carry it. I tear apart COG’s for a living on many products, it would probably add up to about 30.00 for the whole line excluding packaging and Labeling which probably costs more and their marketing costs.
        Just as a for instance
        Tochopherol Acetate is a chemical version of Vitamin E, it is not pure or raw vitamin E. It is very cheap to find this on the web, but compare the cost to an Organic Plant Based Vitamin E.
        There is a really good book called “A Consumers Guide to Cosmetics” it is actually almost and encyclopedia.

        Sister to Common Sense

        • brandicarlene said:

          Thanks, sis2comS! Wow… THIRTY freaking dollars. That makes me sick to my stomach! Greed… It seems as everything bad is rooted by greed. Hence, “money-or the love of money, being the ROOT of all evil”-right? I just can’t even wrap my head around how people do the things they do just to make a buc… at the expense of people lives whether it be literal or metaphorically speaking-they’ll ruin anyone’s life to get ahead, or so it seems…

          You know, the docs… well, I was just thinking about a documentary I watched not that long ago about med school. If you look at it from a certain perspective, med school could be considered a form of brain washing. Please know that I am NOT trying to disrespect or trivialize the value of amazingly brilliant, morally intact physicians! However, the ones who get so caught up in political or financially driven agendas; or any thing that becomes a conflict of interest when it comes down to treating patients (EVEN LOOSELY throwing around a DOP label because there’s no “PEER reviewed” literature & they value their momentary reputation over a patient’s well being)- You know… all that jazz.

          I mean, they take the best of the best, usually young minds… CRAM their heads with SO MUCH knowledge/info within a short time frame, considering the responsibilty, knowledge and power they will soon possess upon completion. They tell them that they’re not ALLOWED to have a job during their schooling, & even give them stats at the beginning regarding likelyhood of divorce if one is to marry while still in med school…

          These students LITERALLY eat, sleep, breathe… MEDICAL school for YEARS. Everything they learn is selected by, “the powers that be”… Then, we’re surprised when they literally are unable to think outside their “medical books/peer reviewed literature”.

          I’m just saying… Yeah, I should probably shut up! LOL! Again, not ALL doctors-of course. Still, it doesn’t seem like they’re are many doctors out there who are willing to use their brilliant minds by standing up for what’s right, at all cost. Seems like they shy away from anything that is the LEAST bit controversial for fear of ridicule, loss of liscence… I think everyone knows that the RIGHT thing to do is almost ALWAYS the hardest thing to do too whether you’re a doctor, a mom, teacher, etc. I’m more hurt than I am angry with some of the medical community. I used to be angry, now I’m just… saddened/hurt…

          Even with these skin lighteners… they are sold in DOCTOR’S offices! Doctors are supremely intelligent and are supposed to know EVERYTHING about the human body-right? At least that’s what I grew up being told and believing. Now, here I am sick with an illness that most of the medical community won’t even acknowledge… they won’t even LISTEN or LOOK long enough to find out for themselves. Here they are selling freaking poison in a tube in THEIR office (& they’re educated enough to know that the ingredients are HARMFUL), & then they find it to be unfathomable when a patient tells them they have weird crap coming out of their skin, or lesions that won’t heal??????!!!!

          I REALLY love how (again) we pay an arm and a leg to be wrongfully told we’re crazy and take home a bottle of their pimped out poison!!!!!!!!! Again, the irony. Okay, I’m done with this rant for now… but, either they’re driven by greed or fear… OR, stupidity???! Jeez! You’d have to be a genius to be a complete moron and somehow still make it all the way through med school! HAHAHAHAHA!. If it’s fear, they’re ‘just’ brain washed… Greed, they’re… something I can’t type!!!

          • Brandicarlene,
            You are absolutely right about the brainwashing which accounts in part for many dr’s inability to think outside the box. I think the greed and fear for reputation play into it also. Another factor is this, and it’s at work throughout our culture: there is a fundamental disconnectedness. Once you begin to notice connections because you have something going on (like Morgs) you begin to see the absurd level of disconnects all around us.
            You describe it well here:
            “…they are sold in DOCTOR’S offices! … Now, here I am sick with an illness that most of the medical community won’t even acknowledge… they won’t even LISTEN or LOOK long enough to find out for themselves. Here they are selling freaking poison in a tube in THEIR office (& they’re educated enough to know that the ingredients are HARMFUL), & then they find it to be unfathomable when a patient tells them they have weird crap coming out of their skin, or lesions that won’t heal??????!!!! ”

            I truly believe that once somebody disassociates themselves from God and nature, then they are also disassociating themselves from humanity. Then any level of greed and criminality is possible. Our whole culture seems to think that scientists have all the answers and that we can somehow live separate from nature and that we don’t need God. A lot of “humanitarians” think the scientists and technology are going to save us from our problems, whether it’s climate change or cancer or world hunger. Where do they think these problems came from to begin with?
            It’s time for each of us to start making connections on our own, with eachothers help, of course. The authorities don’t deserve the power we’ve given them. It’s time to only listen to “experts” who take a holistic view of nature, biology, God. There is very little room in this view for petrochemicals. First and foremost we need to get petrochemicals out of our homes and our bodies (food, farming, household supplies, drugs).

          • brandicarlene said:

            Susan! I have been reading and LOVING your post… So enlightening on so many different levels… That makes perfect sense to me… your comment about doctors and people in general being, “disconnected”. SO very true. There’s a really eery and scary vibe out there about now. EVERYWHERE, not just in doctor’s offices.

            I often think about life and this world we’ve created. You know, all the technology that was SUPOSSED to make our lives that much easier. HA! Now we all seem to ALL constantly live in survival mode. We’ve created this never ending rat race and it seems to me like many live like hamsters/rats constantly RUNNING-in place… In such a hurry and always seeking “convenience” which turns out to be anything but!

            One thing I think about sometimes… Well, we now go CAMPING… for our vacations (well, some of us do-I love it). There was a time when camping, to a certain extent, WAS the way of life! Now, we revert back to it to get a break! We spent years trying to build a more modern way of life, yet now we can wait to escape it every chance we get!!!! At least, I can’t.

            I’ve always dreamed of just selling everything (what’s left of it)-lol- & taking off to ANY somewhat deserted and simpler place/way of living. For example, I’d take a shack on a fairly remote island (with other like minds there to associate with) and no hustle and bustle over a mansion in what we call the “suburbs” ANY day!!! I’d much rather wake up to the sound of crashing waves or any of the wondrous sounds found in nature, instead of the not so sublte, “BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP”… cringing as I press the snooze button!! HHHMMMMM!!! Imagine actually waking up to the sound of waves and birds chirping every morning! Who wouldn’t WANT to wake up versus praying the ten minutes before the alarm goes off ends up seeming a whole lot longer than ten minutes!

            Anyway, I wanted to reply to your post but I didn’t see a reply spot. I’m somewhat new to the blogs. I’ll get it all figured out here sooner or later. Yes, I have really enjoyed reading all that you have posted here. GOOD stuff!!! Thank you so much! You seem to have a rare lease/insight on life. It’s nice… Morgie Island, anyone?hahaha!

  6. sistertocommonsense said:

    I just spoke to the mother of a 24 year old who has this junk…guess what her diagnosis was?????
    doncha just love it, the kid has it all over her face, neck and head.
    The anti virals didn’t work….nor did the Steroids, they made it worse.

    Sister to Common Sense

  7. Heyy!

    My daughters pediatrician said she had acute acne-This is anything but cute!!!

    gotta hold onto sanity with a sense of humor.


  8. sistertocommonsense said:

    Dear Mel,
    Absolutely, a sense of humor is paramount. There is a phrase in the bible, “A Merry heart doeth good like a medicine.”
    In my kitchen there is a sign, “Live Well, Laugh Often and Love Much” and another that says, “Thou Shalt NOT Whine”.

    Sister to Common Sense

  9. Again, it takes me so long to post cause I can’t type! The minute my son goes off to College all of it goes on Estate sale and Hubby and I are building the virtual grass shack.
    I don’t wish what I have on the Jone’s but I sure as hell don’t want it anymore.
    It’s all just stuff. Gimme some waves, a grass shack, the minimal comforts and my adorable hubby, we’ll be in heaven. Bugs and all.

    • Brandicarlene,
      Thank you for the compliment, and sign me up for Morgie Island. I too am sick of the rat race (well, aren’t we all actually sick from the rat race after all? In fact, I never was in the race much, but apparently some smart chemists and bioengineers and CEOs who had some mighty big egos were in the race and now we pay the price). Also, I would just love to hang out with ya’ll on the island and be my real, honest self! No more excuses for the long sleeves in summer, no more worrying about contagion. Ah, it would be heaven in a weird, my-life-is-a-freak-show-might-as-well-admit-it kind of way.

      Seriously though, did anybody read Mr CS’s link at the right to a blog of some guy who thinks Morgellons is bunk? I read that, and a short while afterward had a “suspicious bug event” and I tell you, that instead of the fear or the self-pity trip, I was enraged! It wasn’t just “why me” but it was serious anger aimed at the deniers and the bioengineers and at a certain large corporation who sells gm seeds. Oh boy, that kind of anger will get me nowhere good fast. And so when I read the comments by Brandicarlene and Lamb (over on the Dinovites page)–well, I can see your humanness, guys. And so I cried, and now there’s now choice but to refocus on what is good, truthful, right and beautiful!

      I liked the following from Lamb:
      “Just a few of us “lucky campers” got in the wrong line. The good new is we got in the wrong line with a lot of very smart cookies. It will be the patients who bring this to light not the political hacks at the CDC, nor our “inside the box” physicians.”
      Here’s to the cookies and campers in this line! Peace and health to us all. And may you have sweet dreams, and when you wake up and remember what your life is, may you still have peace and greet the day with a smile.

  10. Joe Keleher said:

    I’ve stopped by a coffee shop on my way to the local meeting (I’m Quaker) and find I get as much spiritual assistance by reading through this blog. You’re a good group of people! Each of you say as much or more than my simple observations; there is a wealth of knowledge here.

    Whoever is in charge of Morgie Island…sign me up for a lot with two cocoanut trees (I’ll need a place to hang my hammock)!

    • brandicarlene said:

      LOL!!! About Morgie Island… I love it! I also, couldn’t agree more… about the people here and the “wealth” of knowledge…

      That’s what I love about this site!! I feel that everyone here encourages others to focus and put an equal amount of attention into finding cures/relief, as well as (& possibly even more importantly-for now) ways to obtain/maintain a high QUALITY of life IN SPITE of having Morgellons…

      It’s really important. I always remind myself when I get down or even start feeling sorry for myself ( I mean, come on… we all feel the need to throw ourselves a little pity party from time to time)… Anyway, I just remind myself that although having this SUCKS-it can ALWAYS be worse! A lot worse at that! I literally begin to imagine what it would feel like to be a quadrapalegic (spelling?)… but, you al know what I’m TRYING to spell… OR, I try to think about what it would be like to have full blown Parkinson’s Disease, MS… I even try to put myself into the most empathitic mode I can & imagine what it would/must feel like to have one of my children kidnapped… WHOA… that has got to be one of the WORST things in the world to have to go through.

      Okay! I know some of you may be thinking… What a MORBID FREAK!!! It’s really not like that. I do this, to remind myself how LUCKY I really am. I mean, it’s hard not to get scared and even feel sorry for myself and my kids at times in regards to having this nightmarish affliction! So, when I stop to meditate (in the most sincere and empathetic way possible) with other people dealing with life altering and tragic situations… well, it snaps me out of it (my pity party) & gives me that brighter perspective that I think is KEY in not only surving through this, but even being able to HAPPILY thrive/live. I also feel that it helps make me more of a caring individual all around.

      I guess I feel that many people are capable of being sympathetic… but to be TRULY empathetic… well, I guess… in my opinion… I think that it takes more effort, & the result can be painful, but through pain, there’s much to be gained. It’s crazy how many ways that little saying/motto can be true. You know the one-“no pain, no gain”.

      I really loved what Susan had to say (this is not word for word) about how although our fate seems so bleek on one hand; well, on the other… most of us (once you make it out of the initial dark hole/reckoning stage) gain SO much insight, gratitude, new perspectives, and almost feel as though there is SOME reason behind why we are having to go through what we are.

      Now, I’m not trying to say that I think we are some “special chosen few”. I’m saying that depending on how we choose to deal what this… well, we can either curl up in the corner and let ourselves actually truly become crazy; or, we can learn SO much about ourselves and just how much we are really capable of. I know I have heard quite a few people quote the bible verse that says, “God will never give us more than we are capable of handling”. ( I am not quoting this perfectly either).. Well, although I don’t think HE DID this to us, I do think that if he didn’t know we were strong enough to handle it… he wouldn’t have let it happen to us. I guess it’s time we all tap into that inner strength that he (God) most know we have/are capable of.

      Something else I often think about… If this affliction is spreading as quickly as it seems to be… If it’s already unknowingly taking hold of people across the globe (as it seems)… WELL! Eventually, people WILL find out (& have to RECKON) with the fact that this IS INDEED real. When this time comes, people are REALLY going to be FREAKING OUT!!! Look at the reaction and range of emotions people are already experiencing (ones who don’t have it) at the mere “possibility” of this being legit. I think that a lot of the nastiness many exhibit when attempting to debunk this is because they ARE SO scared by the thought of this really existing. SO! How about when they have to truly come to terms with it (which you and I know-WILL be the case eventually).

      Can you imagine how TERRIFIED people are going to be. I mean completely and utterly TERRIFIED! Well, if you think about it like this… we have already been FORCED to mentally come to grips with our fate, & just the fact that something so creepy and nightmarish exist-PERIOD. So, when it comes time for the rest of society to face this nightmare of a fact… well, it’s not going to be pretty. At this point, I personally belive that those of us who have already been forced to face it from the get go are going to be in a much better place than everyone else. BECAUSE, we wil have/or have already processed this, & learned to survive/deal with/thrive/ WHATEVER & however.

      At this time, it’s my opinion that we will then be the ones who need to help and guide others through it. EVEN those who spent years ridiculing and scoffing at us. They’re going to eventually HAVE to go through the same process we have whether they get it (morgellons) or not… That’s when I believe we will be somewhat (maybe?) grateful for already having dealt with our deepest darkest fear… fear(S)!

      I also think, based on many of the individuals I have had the pleasure of knowing who already have this, that although many of these people (debunkers, etc.) have basically mentally tortured us in the past with their crude words and horrific ways they’ve treated us… well, I believe that it won’t be a, “ha ha now you know how it feels moment” for any of us. I know I will feel sorry for and saddened for ANYONE (even if they made our life more hellish than it already was at any point and time with thier harsh judgment, debunking, etc.) who might possibly have to face this hell. I know that I will (no matter what) do anything and everything I can to help others through this-at all cost.

      WHO KNOWS! MAYBE, just maybe… that’s why God let this happen to us. Then again, I do realize that it MIGHT NOT play out that way, & if that’s the case-thank you, Jehovah! I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy. Still, my intuition tells me that this is so much bigger than most realize. We already know that the numbers of people falling ill with symptoms similar to ours is rising quickly and steadily, so… we might have a VERY important role to play here in the long run.

      Of course, I also fear another possible scenario… like, uuummmm… being shipped off or “quarantined” against my will. I’m not saying that will happen, I am just being honest about all I think about, fear, consider. HEY! If that happens… MORGIE ISLAND-for sure!!!!!lol!!! Still, that thought scares me, I must admit! Not the island, but not having a CHOICE in being sent somewhere-you know? Does anyone else ever wonder about that?

      I know this, whatever happens… we are going to need to be EXTREMELY strong-MENTALLY. At this point, I don’t think any of us feel we can completely count on our physical capabilities… but, for me… one of my most recent epiphanies (though I guess to some it would be more obvious than any sort of epiphany)… is that the one thing we ALWAYS have control over, is our state of mind. EVEN if you are faced with brain fog & other mental changes of the sort that are due to something systemic/neurological… Well, you’re only at it’s mercy if you don’t take the time to analyze your recent mental changes and not acknowledge they’re happening.

      I guess what I’m trying to say with all that is… your only TRULY crazy… if you’re too pompous or oblivious to acknowledge your mental changes (or, as I like to put it, “CHALLENGES”). For example… (& I am NOT saying I am hallucinating here… just a question to make a point)-If you’re seeing or hearing things, but you KNOW they’re not real-are you really crazy? I don’t think so… AGAIN, I REPEAT… I have NOT been seeing or hearing things, but I know some have. Still, I have had bouts of serious brain fog, less than desirable personality changes, & those sort of things… It’s taken everything I have to correct them and it remains a never ending work in progress, so to speak! Hey! At least I acknowledge them-so that I CAN work on it. Right? lol!!!

      Alright, alight! Perhaps I might not run out of things to say anytime soon!! SO SORRY!!! I just love talking to all you all. Sorry if I haven’t responded to anyone that may have written me back. (or, maybe no one has-not ASSUMING you have… I guess, just hoping..) I have been really enjoying reading ALL the old post on this site trying to catch up to all of you… I have already learned so much here. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!!!

      Lamb… I told you that I had something to write to you. I did write it… but, I’m too embarrassed to post it… Do you think maybe I could send you an email? OR! I could send it to MSC and have him send it to you… I’m embarrassed because… I don’t know… it’s just the only way I could think to describe to you what I went through in the beginning when learning that this was my “fate”… it’s I guess, a… metaphor… and well.. Well, really I don’t even know if you’re going to read this so maybe I should type a shorter post in reply to one of yours before I go on and on!! LOL!!

      PS-to “hereshopin”… and your comment below about what Jesus said… SO TRUE! It’s a funny thing… how so many people view the bible as a code of conduct/or whatever… that “deprives” us from things in life… but, on the contrary, when we put into practice all that’s in there we realize how it really enhances our lives and was written not to DEPRIVE us, but to enhance our lives and protect us!! I loved your reminder/quote from the bible… so true!!!!

      • Wow, Branidicarlene. So many good points. And you made me “LOL”, so thank you! As for morbid freakish-thoughts–I do the same. It helps. Here’s the deal with that and with herehoping’s quote below:
        for about the last 100 years, people in general have had the good fortune to expect to do better than their parents. Materially, things were getting better and better (supposedly), goods were cheaper and your average American could expect to live in greater luxury than anyone had ever lived at any time before. Think about it: air conditioning, tropical fruit in the winter, anathesia and dental work, air planes–not even the wealthiest kings had this stuff. We’ve had one big orgie of gluttony and greed and thought it would go on forever. Now we are in the middle of the tide turning and it’s uncomfortable. It’s time to realize that the current consumerism and materialism is based on a model that is unsusatinable and pollutes the heck out of the world. I mean why is food so cheap? It’s been industrialized to line the pockets of the few while making us sick (and you know that’s related to big-pharma and our screwed up disease-management system). And it’s only possible because of petroleum products available for shipping, packaging, refrigeration, not to mention actual preservatives and additives. So the true cost of industrialized food is actually much higher. The true cost includes sickness and pollution, and we are all beginning to pay now. And this is true across the board, for all of our luxuries, including synthetics materials used to make and furnish your home, clothes, toys, etc.
        It’s very difficult to realize that we will not have it as good as we believed we would. Our children will not be as wealthy (in the terms of this world) as we or our parents were. And people seriously don’t want to see this, so they continue to look for ways to eat calories without getting fat, be fashionable without paying alot, buy homes they can’t afford (oops, guess that bubble did burst). BUT, when you do realize this, you are forced to confront the question of what really matters. It’s time for a new American Dream. A chicken in every pot is good, but a tv in every bedroom? How about love, God, family, health, nature, a little leisure time for sports and music. Everybody wants these things but can’t figure out how to simplify.
        So now Morgs is forcing us to really get in tune with what’s happening globally, and with what’s important. In this sense it is a gift (though I wish I had a return receipt in this case!) or at least an early wake up call. And yes, I do feel bad for the folks who have this in their future–and I think that includes just about everybody– because the reckoning is the hardest thing, but it just points out how asleep we have been. Really makes me think of the Matrix again.
        We do have tremendous power with our attitudes. And it’s not just in a fluffy-makes me feel better kind of way. It’s real, and it affects the very cells of our body. I thank God for this site and for the opportunity to share with all of you, and I thank you for your insights. If we had a big luau and could toast to our health with a glass of coconut milk, it would be heaven.

  11. herehoping said:

    Jesus tried to tell us many many years ago that LESS IS MORE!!!!

    • BrandiCarlene, I would be happy to hear from you as long as it is not inconvenient for MCS to forward your e mail. He’s a busy dude helping us all out here with this blog and I would not like to inconvenience him. If you do write enclose your e mail so we can skip MCS.

      Just a side note. Hubby and I went to Costco and Home Depot today. Ever notice how birds are always flying around the big box stores? I have been crawling and itchy ever since.
      Wonder if they have something to do with the proliferation of this disease ?
      Just one of those things that make you go “hmmm”.

  12. sistertocommonsense said:

    Well this is a keeper on Mercury in Foods with a Food Chart.

    Sister to Common Sense

  13. Joe Keleher said:

    Thank you for the link on mercury in foods. How can people knowingly expose others to toxins?

  14. Everybody, please, please, please start making your family’s food from scratch as much as possible. Please! I know the life of a Morgellon’s sufferer is already busy with too much laundry, baths, etc. But in general people in this country don’t have time to make their own meals. That is a huge tip off that the balance is way off. Find the time!!!

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