I wanted to check-in and share with everyone my current status. As far as Morgellons goes I experience zero of the classical symptoms; no crawling, no biting, no fibers or specks, and in general no skin issues at all. I consider myself cured from Morgellons. Also, my heart palpitations seems to be going away and I’m much relieved for that.
However, from time to time I go through extreme periods of pain which involves both muscle pain and joint pain, and extreme fatigue. I think even more of it stems from nerve pain to be honest. It sometimes overwhelms me and recently I reached out to some folks for prayer. I still have the anxiety too, which for me is worse than pain. I know the two are linked somehow, but which-causes-which is still a mystery to me. I go in and out of these very painful periods and my recent bout was horrible and long lasting, and with me to this very day. Nighttime is the worst for the pain but I won’t go into all the details.
I want you to know though; I do not attribute this pain to Morgellons. There is nothing horrifying about what I am going through right now, it’s just pain and fatigue. Misery for sure in its own right, but I have long been accustomed to living with pain.
I had Lyme three times in the past 2 years as the deer are literally all over our property, right up to the house. This year we are ripping out all of our plants and flower beds. It’s a shame but a reality I must face. My pain may be the result of Lyme or co-infections but I can take care of it with good diet, attitude, and exercise. Despite all I have been through I believe there to be “NO” link between Lyme Disease and Morgellons. I had Lyme clear back in 1990 in Connecticut back when it all started. Morgellons is Morgellons, Lyme is Lyme, that’s it.
My battles are different now, but even though the pain now is far worse than it ever was two years ago, I do not have Morgellons and am so thankful. Pain, fatigue, and anxiety are all a living hell in their own right, but full blown Morgellons makes what I am going through right now a walk in the park. So, to those still suffering from the biting and crawling sensations my heart goes out to you. Please don’t waste prayers on me, pray for those who still have Morgellons.
There are times when I reach my wits end and those that I reached out to in prayer know that all too well. But I always climb back up. In fact, I’m looking forward to hitting the “Elliptical” tonight as I am intent on powering my way through this. Things aren’t all that bad, life is still good, we had a wonderful Christmas and in many ways though my pain is worse my mind is at ease most of the time.
Finally, if you were to look at me you would think me in perfect shape. I look fantastic for a guy that gets run over by a freight train every night.